You've got mail

A letter to her...

Hi _ _ _. I know you won't respond to this email, but I want you to know that I respect you needing some space away from me. However, every now and then I will text you or if not, email you just to let you know I’m still alive, and also to let you know that I still care for you. I know I've hurt you a lot, but I would've hurt you more if I've kept us going longer with me already feeling unsure. It want you to know that it didn't just start recently. These have been on my mind even before I went back to the Philippines, but I tried to brush it off my mind in hopes that maybe if I see you, these thoughts will go away and it did, when I was with you, but when I came back here, I felt it even more. I want you to know that I still care and still love you, and will always will. You will always have a special place in my heart. My feelings are still there for you. I just needed to be alone and figure things out. It's unfortunate what happened between us, but maybe right now is just not the right time. Who knows, maybe in the future things we talked about might still happen. We just never know. I will never erase the possibility of us being together in the future, when I'm more ready to be in a more serious relationship. I still think you make a good wife. I know it's a big lost for me for the decisions I've made but I'm going to pray that maybe in time, we can at least still be friends. I know you don't normally talk to your X's, but considering how we felt for each other, and our times together, maybe, just maybe you will make an exception. I love you, still and always. I miss you.



And the answer...

Hi _ _ _ _ _ _ This will be my last email. Never in my life I've felt too much sadness, but its funny because when I think of our happy memories my heart still smiles and beats for you. You know what I think? How come we don’t always know when love begins, but we always know when it ends?.. Like what I have read the other day, it says.. "We are let into a wonderful world, we meet one another here, greet each other-and wander together for a brief moment. then we lose each other and disappear as suddenly and unreasonably as we arrived." And I agree.
I can’t deny that I really miss you, last night when you texted me, I wanted to respond but you know what I did? I just stared and read your message over and over again. I respect your decision. I have nothing against you. I can’t blame you, I know how you felt, I know its hard, and I can’t do anything to make you feel better as much as I wanted to stay in your life and not to disappear, I need to find myself first because I really got lost right after you said that you think it is better for us to be friends. It's so hard to accept everything. I don’t know what happened to us.
May you find the girl that will make u happy, Take care and I love you, still.


P.S.
How can I be a good wife without you?

Nickelback ~ Far Away
Photo: You've got mail

Topsy-Turvy

After feeling so righteous last February for returning the mobile phone I found inside the cab. What can I say with my March?

I can call my March "TOPSY TURVY"

If I look at it, it's upside down, inverted, reversed and it created a lot of confusion not only to me but to others too. Normal to some but not to me, usually I'm good in hiding my feelings but this time I can't stop it. I feel tired but I want to keep on going. Maybe in April this thing that bothers me will serve various purposes. When I am like this it is helpful to have some assistance.


Gazillion thank you to PapiLove and to all my friends and family who never fails in making me happy.








I know I did something for my own selfish reason. But that's the only reason I have. And if I don't live my life then who will?


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Post from Kabilang Paraiso

If you want to be anonymous, that’s perfectly fine. Here are the things I want to know about you as of now (and following are my answers):

1. What’s your all-time favorite color? And then your sometimes favorite color.

=>RED is my all-time fave color. =>PURPLE sometimes catch my attention

2. What are your top five favorite foods?

=> Spaghetti, Fried Chicken, Adobo, Kare Kare and Spaghetti (hehehe ulit!)

3. Let’s say every person has an Emergency Bag in his/her room, the one bag that s/he will grab in case of fire, earthquake, flood, or any emergency. This bag is especially readied for the purpose of supporting its owner in case s/he will need to camp out for days (Let’s say there are no houses left okay? Total devastation). What would be the contents of yours? Give me ten items at the most. Off the top of your head, don’t think too much!

=>Lighter, pack of Cigarette, cash, pack of instant coffee, my clear book that holds all my documents, camera with full charged batt, cellphone, soap, undies and rosary

The Cellphone (Samsung)

Image by: Burnhamm Plan


February 18, 2010 * 04:15am

It was cold and dark. I'm on my way to work for my 4:30am shift. I took a cab like i always do, as if I have a choice of taking a jeep. I was humming while imagining things. Music check, Himala was on the background sang by I-don't-know-who-the-hell-he-is, all I know it's not Bamboo not even Rico Blanco. I saw this red thingy under the drivers seat. Out of curiosity I picked it up, VOILA! a cellphone. I was thinking if I should ask the driver if it's his, but I thought red color may not be his type. Clock is ticking, I asked the taxi cab driver, He said it's not, however he knows where he dropped the last passenger prior to me, He said its just in Jupiter Street. He asked me that I should come with him. I am a bonafide resident of Makati City for 20 years and there's no way that Jupiter Street will be well lit at this hour. Remembering the story of a young lady who were beaten by the cab driver. SCARY!!! And so, I told the driver to drop me off to my destination. I told him that my brother can take care of it because he's a policeman in Western Police District. I got off the cab as quickly as possible.
At the office. I've been trying to get in contact with the owner, saw a number listed as ME listed in her/his MISSED CALL LOG, mmm.. a back-up mobile phone. I wonder if I should get one.

RING! RING! 5:00am
RING! RING! 5:15am
RING! RING! 5:30am
RING! RING! 7:00am
RING! RING! 7:30am

HEY! DO YOU WANT YOUR MOBILE PHONE BACK OR WHAT???

Plan B. RELATIVES! Yes, finally, Plan B worked, Talk to her aunt, yeah she's a girl actually a nurse working in St. Luke Hospital in Quezon City residing somewhere in Thomas Morato. I was able to get in contact with the owner around lunch time. We set up a date/meeting. First location was Glorritte 4, not bad for me but it was changed to Avenue (that's my fault) and finally we'll meet 1 block away from my house, Robelle Hotel also known as Robelle Mansion, but I thought of giving Filipinas Funeraria as a landmark but come to think of she might feel I'm weird or somewhat scary. So. finally I handed her cellphone and she handed a paper bag back to me. GIFT! Bath and Body works cologne Gardenia Scent. A thank you gift and I appreciate it, smells good by the way.

Aftermath (text brigade)

Samsung Owner: Hi! I hope you like my simple thank you gift. Thank you ulet ah, I'm so sure God will return your kindness to you. Oo nga pla, kung free ka tomorrow, I would like to invite you to my church.

Leztatt: You're welcome, but you shouldn't have, like the scent, though. I would like to come with you to your church, kaya lang it's sunday "Family Day", maybe next Sunday nlng, thanks for the invite.

Samsung Owner: Yeah, Gardenia of Bath and Body Works, its really nice. My service is at 5:30 so, kahit mejo late na, I would like to treat you for dinner.

Leztatt: Sounds tempting, pro KKB dpat tau, a dinner and light talk would be cool. Correct me if I'm wrong, Born again ka ba?

Samsung Owner: Wag KKB. Treat ko nga. hehehe, yap. Christian Church, dinner tau after the 5:30pm service.

Leztatt: basta KKB, how about next sunday?

Samsung Owner: baste din! hehehe..

Leztatt: Alright, cge na po.. basta text text nlng,

Samsung Owner: Sure. see you then. I'm super touched with your kindness. God Bless!


The End.


As my mother's favorite phrase. "DO unto others what you want others do unto you."

Out of Boredom

I feel BORED! I keep pushing myself to think happy thoughts today.
"Just think happy thoughts Ivory.. HAPPY THOUGHTS!!!"
OK let's start.

1. Coffee + Cinnamon buns + Yosi + Pop Jazz = Chillax
2. With Kepi
*Singing "Sunlight" (Home made video)
*Session
*having sleepless morning with her
*creating rap song with her "believe me she's a good composer of kalokohan rap"
*eating with her
*going to spa with her
3. I think beer is addicted to me. LOL! It can't get enough of me
(check my blog about BEER)
4. DVD Marathon on Valentines Day
*Notting Hill
*10 Things I hate about you
*Jerry Maguire
*My Girl
*Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist
5. Top 10 Songs
*BetteDays - Dianne reeves
*Let me in - Mike Francis
*TIme & Tide - Basia
*Don't tell your girlfriend - Julia Fordham
*Paano - Gary V.
*Best things in life are free - Janet Jackson
*Get me - MYMP
*Easy - Lionel Ritchie
*Sundo - Imago
*Happy

Some say I talk too much that's because my head hurts and my heart breaks when I feel like I'm in an empty house or crowded restaurant alone then I start thinking which of the two would make me feel more alone. To avoid it, I try to talk and talk and talk, kahit nonsense na minsan siguro at puro kalokohan na sinasabi ko.


The End.
(I'm still bored.. Grrr)

The Wedding

Frequently asked question, "When are you going to get married?"
Honestly?, I don't know. I don't even know if it will happen.
But just in case it will, let me share my dream wedding.



My Gown

By Little Hippy

My Cake

By Reeves Cake Shop


The Give Aways

By
Flickr.com


My Flower ("Lilies of the Valley" My Birth Month Flower)

By Chiana Wedding Flowers

The Place

From Media Photobucket

To be brave

Always keep a little pray'r in your pocket
And you're sure to see the light
Soon there'll be joy and happinness
And your little world will be bright...

By Lea Salonga

Happy Horse

Picture from The Beer Brotha

Starting today 10Jan10 I will never drink beer (taga sa bato). I was in Kuwago with my Team Frankfurt for the farewell party of our TM. I know for a fact that I can't handle beer. I don't know why I started drinking but I know why I continued. I missed my Sarasota Family. My childhood bestfriend left for abroad. I'm single. I'm not getting any younger. I'm on diet. Those were the few reason why I got drunk. But I know life's not bad. I was lucky having them in my life. No regrets. Going back to my topic, I hate beer. You see, my memory is selective. I tend to forget how sick I felt, the hangovers, the blackouts, the puking, the worrying about how I appeared to other people, the remorse I felt every single morning when I woke up. Beer do that to me. That's why I love brandy over beer.

My letter to Redhorse Beer.

Dear Happy Horse..

Ganda ng ngiti mo huh.. pang asar lang? Alam ko na nasa isip mo kaya ganyan na lang ang pag ngisi mo. E ano naman kung nagtagumpay ka kagabi? Last ko na yun noh.. hindi na mauulit. Magkikita pa din tayo alam ko pero hindi na gaya ng kagabi. Wag sana sumama loob mo kung si GranMa pinili ko, mas naalagaan kasi nya ko, unlike you, lagi mo ako binabangenge, lakas mo kasi sumipa.. Ampf. Salamat Happy Horse mahaba din ang pinagsamahan natin, mula Highschool hanggang kagabi. Hanggad ko kaligayahan mo Happy pero sa ibang tao mo na lang ibigay sipa mo, mas deserving sila sayo.

PS
Stay Happy, Happy Horse.
Goodluck sa mga tagasubaybay mo..