A letter to her...
Hi _ _ _. I know you won't respond to this email, but I want you to know that I respect you needing some space away from me. However, every now and then I will text you or if not, email you just to let you know I’m still alive, and also to let you know that I still care for you. I know I've hurt you a lot, but I would've hurt you more if I've kept us going longer with me already feeling unsure. It want you to know that it didn't just start recently. These have been on my mind even before I went back to the Philippines, but I tried to brush it off my mind in hopes that maybe if I see you, these thoughts will go away and it did, when I was with you, but when I came back here, I felt it even more. I want you to know that I still care and still love you, and will always will. You will always have a special place in my heart. My feelings are still there for you. I just needed to be alone and figure things out. It's unfortunate what happened between us, but maybe right now is just not the right time. Who knows, maybe in the future things we talked about might still happen. We just never know. I will never erase the possibility of us being together in the future, when I'm more ready to be in a more serious relationship. I still think you make a good wife. I know it's a big lost for me for the decisions I've made but I'm going to pray that maybe in time, we can at least still be friends. I know you don't normally talk to your X's, but considering how we felt for each other, and our times together, maybe, just maybe you will make an exception. I love you, still and always. I miss you.
And the answer...
Hi _ _ _ _ _ _ This will be my last email. Never in my life I've felt too much sadness, but its funny because when I think of our happy memories my heart still smiles and beats for you. You know what I think? How come we don’t always know when love begins, but we always know when it ends?.. Like what I have read the other day, it says.. "We are let into a wonderful world, we meet one another here, greet each other-and wander together for a brief moment. then we lose each other and disappear as suddenly and unreasonably as we arrived." And I agree.
I can’t deny that I really miss you, last night when you texted me, I wanted to respond but you know what I did? I just stared and read your message over and over again. I respect your decision. I have nothing against you. I can’t blame you, I know how you felt, I know its hard, and I can’t do anything to make you feel better as much as I wanted to stay in your life and not to disappear, I need to find myself first because I really got lost right after you said that you think it is better for us to be friends. It's so hard to accept everything. I don’t know what happened to us.
May you find the girl that will make u happy, Take care and I love you, still.
P.S.
How can I be a good wife without you?
Nickelback ~ Far Away
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